11's seem to be the common theme right now. Slept 11 hours and 11 mins. Yeah holy shit that's a lot, welcome to my depression. But that's for another time right now the theme is 1's.
And then Tanner is turning 11 today. Just seem to be seeing 1's or 11's in everything. Signs.
I know most people don't believe in them but I'm one who does. Now to figure out what the signs mean that usually is the hard part.
1:00 am the time Tanner was born. :)
So on the 3rd I decided to cold turkey it. This is like the millionth time I've quit smoking, but so far so good.
I haven't put on any weight from doing it like they say you do. Which is surprising since I have ate 1000 suckers and twizzlers. They have been my go to oral...whatever. They have helped. Lol
So the first couple of days wasn't to easy. I decided to give up anything that would be a trigger to cigarettes. So I gave up coffee as well. Then I realized I wasn't only jonesing for cigarettes I was also jonesing for my caffeine. I was one moody biatch!! Nobody in my house was safe.
Once I got some coffee in me I was better. ☺
I have found though that I am still moody in some ways. I mean, smokes was my anxiety drug. So now I'm having to fix those things that caused anxiety. Or I should say...I see what I'm going to have to fix.
Oh and I swear to the God's that my mother has quit smoking radar. Haven't heard from the lady in 2 weeks, quit smoking and BAM! She calls. But that's one call I let go to VM. Lol
Anywho. Though I'm finding food is tasting different again, and I really miss smoking, and I'm more emotional. I will, I WILL do this!!
So weird to be gone so long and come back and read things you wrote 7yrs ago. Now half the kids are grown and gone, Tanner pretty much knows his name, Becca is still the popular butt, Chris is still the awnry one and my oldest is still always trying to explain video games to me in great detail. So not A LOT has changed.
I was diagnosed with trigeminal neuralgia back then and have been dealing with that through the years here, I became a Reiki Master and am working on my health by getting back into running and working towards going vegan.
I currently am a Supervisor at a Fitness Rec center. Well we clean it, so I get exercise doing that. But in the year I've worked there I as of yet to workout there even though I have a free pass to the facility. Shtoopid shtoopid me!! I need to get on it soon though cause I'm not planning on working there forever. I'm hoping to eventually get my Reiki business up and running eventually here.
Nikketti
